Because I had so much fun last week rambling, I thought I would join up again with the Blog World today for a little thinking out loud!
After talking to my doctor yesterday at the beginning of my Remicade infusion I started to think about my future and running.
I made a comment that I was grateful I could actually run and maybe my destiny was slow treadmill miles, and he said no, that would not be acceptable that we needed to get full remission.
I feel kind of lost right now with no goal in mind.
I am so used to having some sort of end game for why I am running that it seems odd my race calendar has been totally empty for months.
Minus this beauty, the Brew Mile, which I am sure is just perfect for my not really drinking lately self!
I am working on having a solid base built for the if and when I can train but I really don't know what my goal will be.
I do know after a couple years and 5 marathons + 1 ultra marathon that I am really not wanting to do that for a little while.
Then I think I want to focus on some fall half marathons but honestly training pretty much knowing you have no hopes of a PR (1:53) is kind of sad (or is that just super competitive me being a brat?). Even in order to snag some PR's in shorter distances requires 8 min miles or so.
I very much enjoy running and am not going to stop just because I don't have a goal in mind but it would be nice to work toward something. Lately I have felt my legs have a lot to give if only my whole body would cooperate and just let me run...without needing to run to the bathroom ;)
I have tried to integrate more non running things into my life. I attempted to jump on the yoga bandwagon - that didn't last. I go in and out of love for group fitness classes - I think that lately is more due to not wanting to be constrained to their schedules (I've been coming into work really early lately so I can try and be out by 4 - doesn't always work that I can leave, but I try!). I just always come back to running.
I guess any fall races will be determined by if and when I am feeling like I can actually run outside. I hate summer running and the humidity but I love that it is so good for training.
Right now I am just embracing the miles as I run them and am hopefully soon enough I can hit that register button on a race!
I hope you can run outside soon! In the meantime, I'm glad that your doctor wants to ensure you have a good quality of life and can get your Crohn's into remission.
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