Just realized that I have been kind of MIA for a couple of weeks.
Still no full NYCM recap. No training updates. None of what I have been up to since.
So here is a little glimpse into the past couple weeks of my life.
I ran NYCM while feeling like shit. Complete and total shit.
I proceeded to take only two days off from training (since you know, I ran the marathon as a training run and all).
BIG SHOCK. I wound up sick for basically the next two weeks that followed. I am just starting to feel some semblance of normal... although I still feel just flat out EXHAUSTED at times for no reason.
So first up. I totally do not recommend doing that to yourself. If you wake up with a fever and shit, put yourself back to bed instead of running 26.2 miles.
But if you DO go run it. Maybe take the following day off. Me? I was in the office at 8am and had an 11 hour day the day after.
And when you do start running. Don't make the first run back a 10 miler.
Queen of Good Decisions.
I fought all urges for rest days and ran myself quite literally into the ground. 6 days after NYCM as I am running a long run with my friend...11 minute miles seemed like torture and with each passing minute felt worse and worse. I somehow made it to just under 14 miles when I wanted to die. I had nothing left in me. Major light bulb went off in my head that umm I need to not run. And maybe take a day off. You know get myself better.
So last week I took some time off. I didn't run for a full week! (lifetime for me) and to be totally honest, I did not miss it. I have drank the kool aide and am 150% in love with Flywheel and have been taking entirely too many classes and spending way too much of my money there.
That $32 a pop sure does hurt the bank account but oh how I love it.
So back to that whole training thing. Flywheel classes can totally replace actually running as training for the marathon. Right? Maybe? Just lie to me and say yes.
More confession time. I am supposed to run Palm Beaches Marathon in about 2 1/2 weeks. It is to be my sisters first marathon and I am heading back to Florida to join in the action.
I'm not entirely convinced any more that I am going to do it. I just don't know if I have another 26.2 miles in me right now. I am beat. Physically and mentally. I have checked out with running. I don't WANT to train right now and am attempting to get away with minimal in order to still be in shape enough for a marathon (although pretty sure that with only 5 weeks between them and still being highly active, no matter what I am fine).
I have nothing to prove. And I am about 99.9% sure that I am NOT going to run my sub 4 hour marathon in Palm Beach. I have proven time and again I run like shit in warm weather and am just not there at the moment physically. To beat my body up for another meh marathon, I am currently just sitting back and weighing the options of dropping down to the half.
Obviously taking into consideration if I will be disappointed etc. The good news is that I have until the day before to swap out my bib so I have some time. Until then I am going to follow through with the coaches training as if I am running it but I would be lying if I said I was actually all in and on board anymore.
Okay. I think I have babbled on enough.
I think for the first time in a while, I am not all do or die about running. And that is a reason to pause about this whole marathon coming up but as well as kind of be happy. Some times I let it consume me way too much and it is nice to not feel pressured about it right now.
I have so much going on right now and running isn't the number 1 priority. And you know, I am totally okay with that.
I am going to run on my own terms. And if I don't feel like it, I won't.
Love, love, love this post. So glad you are listening to what feels right. I know you probably are far too mature to think, "but what will I post on my blog!?" but on the off chance that stray thought has entered your mind, I am 100% sure NO ONE would judge you for dropping down if that's what feels right for you. You've proven you can run a marathon, you've proven you can run hard, and right now you have nothing to prove :) I try to remind myself consistently that I am young and have a lifetime of running goals to shoot for; don't let anything trip you up and make you hate running now! *hugs*ReplyDelete
Good luck whatever you choose in Palm Beach. That was my back up race after NYC cancelled last year and I ended up choosing to do the half because it was 85 degrees, I enjoyed it. Props to you for such a great NYC finish time with a crazy temp!ReplyDelete
Wow, that marathon came up fast! Good for you for resting- sounds like your body took over and told you what it needed! Best of luck at Palm Beach!ReplyDelete
Do what feels right. Whatever is going to give you the bigger smile at the end -- the half or full -- that is the right choice. And you'll rock either one. Happy Thanksgiving!!!ReplyDelete